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  19|08|2022 Inevitable things happened when I less expect. Today is hard maybe because I’m overflowing with emotion. I do not wish for this. I do not wish to witness it myself and undoubtedly it breaks my heart. My emotion is unstable these days but I’m not having a hard time for a week. And I should expect this but I’m too comfortable and being comfortable make me forget the upsetting feeling. I shouldn’t write this longer than before but I’m too stuck and suddenly feel like I’m in an unlopes pool and there’s no end to this. After being busy and forgetting to take care of myself lately also being too calm, I should at least do something to release this. There’s nothing I can do except write to release this uneasy feeling. I want to at least say sorry because I couldn’t do anything. I’m sorry for being too late. I know it’s not my fault but I still feel guilty. I want to finish this but my emotion didn’t let me. I’m weeping as well. I should forget this but I couldn’t help myself
  STOP HOLDING ON TO YOUR PAST If we want to definite the definition of past here is beyond time or later and used to indicate the lapse of time. The past as we dig further to find the meaningful meaning is any time that has gone or elapsed in time and already happened. The past is something that we can’t turn back on no matter how much we want it. The definition isn’t that contrast with present and future because it is all a time Back to the topic, stop holding on to your past means putting an end to any trauma and grief that holding you on from moving forward and living your life. Trauma and grief can be devastating from time to time if you don’t put a halt to them. Trauma such as physical abuse, bullying, and early childhood trauma is something no one ever needs to go through it but some humans are just beyond evil. The grief and loss from losing someone are unbearable and the pain is overwhelming but this doesn’t mean you need to stop functioning in your life. Time as they sa